I understand every word you've written. Details are different, of course, but your story is my story.

Grief counselor aside, really? Do people in grief talk about the moment their loved one dies? I used to belong to a popular online bulletin board for those widowed young (no longer in operation) and we all talked about it, but I figured it was because everyone was kin in their experiences.

My John died almost 20 years ago now. I tend to write about my experiences with grief over my loss, his death, how it utterly altered my life, right around the anniversary of the day he died.

All of the details are etched into my memory banks.

I'm sorry for all that you and your boys endured. It's a lot and then when it's over the real hell begins...