I can't imagine the complication of Covid 19 so early in grief. From the beginning (his diagnoses) to year three it was a struggle to do anything much less wiping down groceries and dealing with all of the fear and inconvenience.

Here I am now, just past the 18th anniversary of my first husband's death. Grief is a piece of who I am. Finding the whole of me was hard but I did it. Never let anyone give you any sort of a time line. Maybe you are already there, maybe not. It took me a very long time.

The widows here on Medium will find you and can be of great comfort with their knowledge of your feelings.