I could show you what I’m trying to hide but then I’d have to kill you

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I have, for a very long time, been a person who finds a lot of meaning in the things that happen to us in our day to day lives. I keep my mind open and look for signs. When people I love are down or confused I sit and hold their hand and try to get them to look at the bigger picture.

It is equally important that I remember to do this for myself.

When a person loses their job it might be…


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Resident Assistant was Rob’s dream job. He could continue on with his education, get free room and board in the nicest rooms on campus at the most sought after dorm and get paid. Not to mention the access to eighty-five of the loveliest co-eds on the East Coast.

When Rob was growing up no one could have predicted his predilection towards manipulation. He was good looking without being threatening, somewhat on the small side. It was clear, when he was a boy, that his stature was going to stay smallish and his lack of athleticism would never change. He thrived…


…and making it work without the missing cog

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When you repair a watch from pieces it’s easier if you have all of the parts. What do you do, though, if there’s a missing cog? The watch won’t work. You can’t say a watch works if it’s only right twice a day. It’s also true that if a watch is just a little bit broken, say it still ticks and you can wind it, it really isn’t a watch at all if it doesn’t keep time. It’s safe to say, in the realm of timepieces, you need all of the parts.


…and the simplicity of tea

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The harbor is where river waters congregate before pushing on to the sea. Where once were rocks and earth, small fish and bits and pieces of human life from the mountains above, now is only a hollowed bowl, deep enough to hold what enters without spilling. Soon enough the fresh water mingles with salt, the current stirs up sediment and fishermen launch their boats, ready to labor.

Fishing is an uncomplicated job to the untrained eye. Lifelong attention to detail teaches where to set the nets, what type of hooks to use, which species make…


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Honey Bristol, of Centralia, was born in 2026 and had been doing support to technology work since the age of 6. She sat back in her cubicle’s sleep chair and tried her best to drift off. Earlier in her life she’d used relaxation aids but those had been denied her, due to a lack of “earnest intentions” when she fell asleep while working online for Intelligent Digestive Biotics. She’d not yet figured out how to make herself sleep without assistance.

It had already been twenty or so years since she’d had more than three or four hours of rest in…


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The heat and humidity remain unchanged in South Texas for at least four months, starting in late May. Cicadas seem to bring the high temperatures with them, grinding out their metallic song and filling the air with notes of oppression.

“Try to escape this,” they seem to say.

Frannie and Clayton made the best of things during the summer of 1964. They lived across the street from each other and their mothers agreed that kids needed to play outside. …


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The thing is, I don’t look so good.

Sure, in person you probably wouldn’t notice all the things I find wrong with my face in a photo. I always chalked it up to “I am not photogenic.”

Other than checking myself out in a mirror on a daily basis to make sure I don’t have bed hair or ballpoint pen ink on my cheek I figure I’m good to go. I’m not vain and I have good self esteem. …


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Annette’s best wedding gift was the one item she opened the morning of her rehearsal dinner and put to the side without even thinking about it. Her Grand-mère shook her head, her smile suddenly changed to frown position and her brow lined with disapproval..

“Non, non Annette. Cherie, you kiddin’. Dat da best giff you got yet. You go now, put dat rice cooker on the livin’ room table with all dem pretty things you and Chervoi done got. I’ll take it if you don’t wan’ it. I’ll keep it as a spare case mine breaks.”

“Mere, it’s not that…


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She was alone in the yard.

The yard was fenced and behind the fence were thick Ligustrum and Camellias lining the neighbor’s property. The neighbors were old and the only time anyone was ever in their backyard was when the lawn was being mowed.

Twice a month she watched the hired gardeners, an old man and his much younger son, maybe his grandson, through the chain link where two of the Ligustrum parted ways. Maybe the gardeners had clipped both bushes too much for the space to grow back in a single year of seasons.

She watched while the hired…


I must have done something good.

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My daughter is 36. I had her when I was 28. Her father and I had already been married for seven years and our families were wondering why we were taking so long to produce a child.

I never thought I would have a kid. This will sound really incredibly stupid but, although I’m an atheist, to please my devoutly Catholic mother I got married in “The Church” and not only subjected my husband to pre-Cana classes, I agreed to raise any offspring in the church. I sat and promised my mother’s favorite priest…

Judy McLain

Shit Creek survivor. Storyteller. Feminist liberal. Southern without the accent. Chihuahuaist.

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